I don't consider myself the best writer in the world, however, I have studied the craft, honed my skills over the past several years and felt like I had entered my best work in the Genesis Contest.
I got the news yesterday that I didn't final. Boy, that was crushing. I was extremely disappointed. I even decided to quit writing. Yep, that's what I told myself. "I quit. I'm never going to be good enough. I've had enough of this rejection stuff to last a lifetime."
Then I decided to give it to God. Who am I writing for anyway? Oh, sure, I like the accolades when someone compliments my writing. It does my heart good. But, I have to remind myself that writing is a talent and when I decided to write for God, that means I have to wait on His timing when it comes to the publishing aspect of the craft.
And if I didn't final in the Contest, there has to be reason why. And too, these are only human beings that are "grading" my work and they may not even LIKE the topic - Suspense. So, I suppose everything is subjective, including the judges opinions, but it's still a bummer that they didn't like my work well enough to "pass" me...and move me on to the next level.
But I have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and God is in control and as long as I leave it in His hands, success isn't measured in the number of books I publish, but in whether or not what I've written has pleased the Master Author.